Sunday, July 05, 2015

Happy 4th of July

Happy Independence Day.

The great American holiday is marked with cook outs, parades, and fireworks as if it were a set of requirements to celebrate properly.  I remember the parades when I was a boy and my dad was a volunteer fireman.  I'd sit on the embankment across the street from Mr. Cone, the ice cream stand, and wait for dad to come by; firetruck horns and sirens sounding off for the kids.  We'd go to the pond in town and from the little island in the center someone would launch off fireworks.  For many years the family would go to Monroe Lumber, dad's store, and watch from the back of his pick up truck.  Towns like Monroe, NY, from my past and Fuquay Varina, NC, in my present, line the street poles with flags and red, white, and blue bunting.


American pride with a slight dash of swagger.

We live in a great neighborhood.  It's the type of neighborhood where there are lots of kids who al seem to get along, lots of fun adults, and everyone is down with having a good time.  There is even a Facebook Page where the moms of the community share recipes, babysitters, and even kids clothing.  On that page someone decided to put together a "First Annual" 4th of July Parade for the community where all the kids would ride their bikes behind a motorcycle that led the way - a whopping quarter mile - in a lazy loop from and to the pool.   Dozens and dozens of families showed up.

And.  It.  Was.  Awesome.


The kids - and their parents - and their grandparents - were all decked out in patriotic colors as the parade stretched out over half the distance of  the route as the little kids had trouble keeping up with the bigger kids who were trying to keep up with the motorcycle.  Grant kept right up with the group as I monitored from my bike.  It was all a little haphazard but it was fun.  People not in the parade actually brought out their lawn chairs and sat along the parade route and cheered.

We stuck around the pool for an hour afterwards where Grant swam in the deep end from the wall to me about ten feet away "all by himself"!  It was indeed a major milestone for him.  Unfortunately we were driven off by a strong localized downpour.

Our evening reminded us of the great community we live in with a big cook out at the Haran's house.  Burgers, ribs, beer, bourbon, cigars - Joe Haran said it best as we were sitting on the back porch, "this is what a barbecue should be."  I couldn't agree more.  The kids all play together and no one really stresses where they are or what they are doing.  Maybe in a few years when they are raging, hormonal teenagers we might need to worry - but not now.

As dusk approached we began to hear the WHUMP (1...2...3) BooM!  of the neighborhood fireworks.  We moved the party from the back of the house to the front of the house.  The kids all got sparklers as the grown up launched hundreds of dollars of fireworks into the sky.  It was perfect.

The traditions of our childhood have changed over the years, yet there is still a lot we gleefully cling to them in their 2015 form and pass on to our children.  In forty years, perhaps Grant will remember these rites of the American Summer and pass them on.



Friday, July 03, 2015

Premier Summer! Part I

While spending my summer at Fort Knox, Kentucky, I had to find a way to unwind that did not include drinking alcohol, being totally lazy, or getting into any other kind of trouble after 9pm.  On the weekends I would drive up to Preston Crossings, Okolona, KY, and catch a matinee of the new movie that came out that weekend.

So - without any real (or reel) background in reviewing movies or acting (aside from a play I did in my junior year of high school) - here is a run down of the movies I saw this summer.

Avengers: Age of Ultron
What a busy, busy movie.  While I like superhero movies, Marvel has taken them to the next level because none of these movies can stand on their own and make sense.  To understand the complexities of the relationships of the seven or so main characters you would have to have watched both Captain America movies, both Thor movies, all three Iron Mans, plus the first Avengers movie.  You probably need a smattering of Agents of Shield too. 

There was so much back story I had trouble with the current story. 

So they build the "ultimate" bad ass robot and turns on them and then they have to fight not only it, Ultron, but all of the robots he creates on a city being lifted into the air on rocket boosters.  Sure.

Strap in, hang on, go pee before the movie starts.  Bring your kid to explain it to you afterwards.

B+

Mad Max: Fury Road
George Miller saved money on writers for a script and dialogue and spent it on explosions, stunts, and car crashes.  Money.  Well.  Spent.   With a pretty straight forward plot that keeps you engaged, the movie is an adrenaline rush for almost the entire picture.  Creepy bad guy and minions chase our hero across the desert because he has their fertile women (who don't want to be used as brood stock).

I liked Mad Max and the Road Warrior - the anti-hero who wants to turn his back on the world but still has a thread of decency. The new Max (Tom Hardy) conveys that very well. 

Big, bad ass cars and trucks set in a future of feudal rules and borderline anarchy.  All going really, really fast.

A+  

Tomorrowland

I am saving this movie for when I get home and can take TJ.

IC

San Andreas
I love a good disaster movie.  San Andreas delivers the disaster without being a disaster. 

In less than two hours the Hoover Dam is destroyed, Los Angeles rolls like a wave and is reduced to rubble and San Fransisco is demolished and flooded.  I like that most disaster movies are rooted in some fact.  Clearly California is due for "the big one" and thanks to plate tectonics, everything west of the fault line will be under water in a million years or so.  But we don't have time to wait that long so we can do in one movie day. 

Duane Johnson does not suck as an actor.  He's not a Brando either, but he does show emotion that you can believe.  So there's that.  Both lead female characters were obviously chosen for their endownment then maximized by lowcut tops.  I saw cleavage that ran deeper than the geologic phenomenon in the title of the movie.  And when the earth quakes, they shake. 

Everything appeared as bad as I could be (memories of San Fransisco 1987) and I was doing good until they were piloting the zodiac boat through the flooded streets of SanFran.

Wait for Netflix but rent it in BluRay.

B




Just a note on the "trouble after 9pm".  It is my personal philosophy that nothing good happens when you start your evening after 9pm.  After 9pm people are looking for a good time that could include - but might not be limited to - drinking, criminal acts, debauchery, and general mayhem.  It is a personal rule that I started as I got older and one I adhered to when deployed.  There was never a good reason for me, or anyone else, to be roaming around a Forward Operating Base in the middle of Iraq at 10:30 at night unless you were on duty.  I carried that forward to Kentucky, or North Carolina, or just about anywhere.

Coming up in Part II -

Jurassic World
Inside Out
Minions

Thursday, July 02, 2015

Tanks A Lot

I am finally home for the summer after eight long weeks in Ft. Knox, Kentucky, the former Home of the Armor School. As such the post has plenty of tanks on display.

The Patton Museum is on Ft. Knox too - a monument to possibly the greatest Armor Officer and certainly one of the most controversial Generals of World War II.

I even went to a display of current equipment like rocket launchers, missile systems, cannons, and engineer equipment. They even let me sit in an M1 Abrams! I only wish the boys could have been with me to see it. So - this is for you, TJ and Grant.

Ft. Knox - thanks a lot!

Patton Tank
BAG (Big Ass Gun)
 



 









Rocket Launcher
Self Propelled Howitzer
Multiple Launch Rocket System
Mine Sweeper
120mm Howitzer
M-1 Abrams Tank
Sherman Tanks
Patton Tank

Sunday, June 07, 2015

The Great American Bourbon Trail

I am traveling through Kentucky.  The home of bluegrass, horse racing, and, of course, bourbon. 

There is something about bourbon that I truly enjoy.  I have tried other distilled spirits but I just don't like vodka, gin, or scotch.  Yes, tequila is enjoyable in the summer.  Bourbon, however, just has a flavor and refinement to it.  Its a man's drink - only sexier when a woman drinks it.  Bourbon is a not a fru-fru drink to be mixed at sorority houses and the most I would ever mix it with is a cola.  I like a manhattan cocktail but prefer it over ice with a little water.

Bourbon is distinctively an American spirit with 96% percent of it being made in the state of Kentucky.  In fact, in 1964, Congress declared bourbon to be a "distinctive product of the United States".  In order for it to be considered bourbon in America it needs to meet these guidelines (cut and pasted from wikipedia):

  • Produced in the United States
  • Made from a grain mixture that is at least 51% corn
  • Aged in new, charred oak barrels (adds color and flavor)
  • Distilled to no more than 160 (U.S.) proof (80% alcohol by volume)
  • Entered into the barrel for aging at no more than 125 proof
  • Bottled (like other whiskeys) at 80 proof or more (40% alcohol by volume)

  • It amazes me with the patience that goes into making alcohol. Once the alcohol goes into the barrels the barrels go into massive buildings that can store 40,000 barrels and then sit there for over two years. Imagine trying a new recipe and having to wait for two years before you know how to tweak it. 

    I have been visiting distilleries on what is called the Great American Bourbon Trail.  Maker's Mark, Jim Beam, Knob Creek, Four Roses, Bulleit, and many others dot the state.  Each offers a tour, each with their own "flavor".  Maker's takes you through the actual production factory, Evan Williams is in downtown Louisville and is a more of a show.  Bulleit is oddly located in a warehouse district near Louisville and is only unique because the owner happens to be there on the grounds and will come out of the office to say hello.

    The best part of the tours is the taste testing of course.  The distillers put out their product line for sample - full bottles in the gift shop for a competitive fee.  If you pay attention to the tour guide you can detect the different aromas and hints of flavors within the alcohol.  I paid enough attention to know that I like some more than others because the other 49% can be a variation of different ingredients and those make each bourbon unique.  I have only been to three but I hope to add two more before I come home.  Maker's Mark is still my favorite so far.



    So - cheers!



     

    Monday, May 25, 2015

    Memorial Day













    For The Fallen

    They went into the battle, they were young.
    Straight of limb, true of eye, steady and aglow.
    They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted:
    They fell with their faces to the foe.

    They shall grow not old, as we are left to grow old:
    Age shall not weary them, nor the years condem.
    At the going down of the sun and in the morning
    We will remember them.
                                         
                                          - Laurence Binyon

    I attended several memorial services in Iraq in '04-'05 and '08-'09.  Young men and women whose lives ended in a roadside bomb or a snipers bullet.  The services were usually the same; rifle pointed into the ground with a helmet on top and boots at the base.  There was a picture of the Soldier in uniform.  But also with family, children, other brothers-in-arms.  Words, prayers, tears, hugs - never exactly right and never enough to mark the loss of someone in their prime.

    Today all of those families across many generations and many conflicts will remember.  To quote Lincoln, "It is altogther fitting and proper that we should do this."

    As I approach thirty years of service I know that the concept and act of war is enduring.  It has exisited for thousands of years as we have tried to hoist flags of nations or religions over one another.  War is enduring.



     

    Saturday, May 16, 2015

    Insurance


    I was not athletic as a kid.  That means I did not play organized sports.  Of course this was back in the day when Little League baseball and Pop Warner football were the only games in town.  Not like today where kids have a choice of soccer, swimming, Tae Kwon Do, or even rowing.   I ran track for a couple of seasons in High School – once running a 5:15 mile to the surprise of my coach and myself. 
    As a kid my athleticism was running through the woods, sledding down the big hill at the golf course (and walking back up the hill), and swimming all summer.  We played tennis, stickball, and tag football; but never in an organized manner.  Still – I stayed thin and limber – just not athletic to a point where it was a part of my life.  Then again, who in their teens truly sees beyond the immediacy of the moment?  Very few.  You see them every four years on NBC.
    Even in Basic Training I did push-ups, sit-ups, and ran out of fear of my Drill Sergeants than for passing the physical fitness test.  Once I made it to the New York State Trooper Academy I learned that if you ran faster than the others then you got to the shower first.  From there it started for me.
    Since my mid-twenties I had maintained a level of physical fitness that wasn’t the pinnacle of human endeavor, but I didn’t have a gut and could run 7:00 miles for a 10k.  I could do push-ups and sit-ups in the high ninetieth percentile when I took my Army Physical Fitness Test.  I tried to “get big” in 2008-09 in Iraq but I lacked the discipline to take protein shakes and limit carbs even though I went to the gym almost every day.  I suppose I got strong without getting puffy.
    Now I am forty-eight and fifty is creeping around the corner.
    And I still lace up the shoes and pound the pavement.  Even with my bad knee I can still run a 5k in under 24:00 and the APFT 2 Mile Run in 14:15 on an easy day.  I go to the gym and lift with a goal in mind of getting stronger than I am now.
    Why.
    I look at working out as an insurance policy for the future.  Eating well and exercise might give me more time to play with the boys as they become teenagers and keep me agile for grandchildren one day.  I do it so I don’t have health issues now or in the future.  I have some ego in it too.  I want to be respected for looking the part of an Army officer, good looking dad/husband, and forty-something year old. 
    I still work out to stay young in body, mind, and spirit for as long as I can.

    Wednesday, May 06, 2015

    Down Into Turn One

    Look carefully at this old picture.  Number 17 is waiting to get onto the five-eights mile hard clay oval track of the Orange County Fair Speedway.   He's not exactly ready to go because his helmet and goggles are not on. It's probably a publicity photo for the speedway or for the weekly program. 

    Most likely it's a Saturday evening early or late in the season based on the jackets and flannel the people are wearing.  The stands in the far back ground appear to be somewhat full. 

    The men standing on boards in back of the green Chevrolet shortbed sidestep pick-up truck have their attention drawn to the first turn of the race track.  All four of them are watching with intensity.  Perhaps there is a lead change going on, or perhaps there is a bunched-up group of stock cars headed into the turn.  Maybe the race is close; down to the last few laps.  Or maybe there is an accident.

    Looking carefully at the sidestep you see a red fire extinguisher.  Once you notice that one you look through the cockpit of number 17 you can see a whole bunch of fire extinguishers. 

    The green pick-up is the safety vehicle for the race track.

    The man in the red flannel shirt looking to his right into the first turn is my dad. 

    In 1975.

    In 1975 my dad would have been 42 years old; younger than either of his boys are now.  In fact, I would have been eight years old - the same age as TJ this year.  There is Dad in his prime of his life on a Saturday night doing something that gave him so much pleasure. 

    The green truck belonged to Monroe Lumber; my dad's business.  Every Saturday he would close the lumber yard at noon.  In the spring, summer, and fall - if the weather was nice - he would load the back of the truck with fire extinguishers and drive to Middletown, NY, and provide safety and fire response for the race track. 

    He loved stock car racing.  It gave him a thrill that other people get watching football, or hockey, or anything involving speed and human competition.  He never climbed into a car and drove it, he always enjoyed being a spectator.

    When we got older we got to go with him.  Around 12 years old, I was allowed to drive the company forklift an load the fire extinguishers.  When I turned 16, I got a job at the raceway myself and would ride with him.  We came home covered in clay dust at midnight only to be met by mom at the back door who ordered us to strip and shower before we brought the dirt into the house.

    My brother, Andy, found this picture and sent it to me.  It's so benign.  A simple promo picture that caught my dad in the background but it brought back so many great memories.  How awesome to see him like this.  In a few weeks it will be nine years since we lost him to cancer.  We miss him and this was a great way to remember him.

    Wednesday, April 22, 2015

    Bonding

    Look carefully at the picture and you will notice a small face in the upper right hand window.

    That is Grant and he is blowing kisses to me as I pull out of the driveway and head to work.  And it is so stinkin' cute.  Grant is definitely in that adorable zone.

    Without a doubt I am getting cooler and cooler with Grant.  He cuddles with me, asks for me to tuck him in, and gives me unsolicited, "I love yous".  And if I am mowing then I always have a helper helping me push back and forth on the lawn.

    It's nice to have my son looking up to me for fun, acknowledgement, confidence, and bonding.  That's what it is right?  We are bonding.  And I love it.

    Yesterday, Grant took off the training wheels on his bike for the first time and pedaled for three whole seconds without me holding him.  He trusts me because the day prior he steadfastly announced he was n-e-v-e-r going to take off the training wheels. My hope is that we can extend that trust to the swimming pool this summer.

    Because I am his new buddy, Grant is very cognizant of when I leave for work and always stops me for a hug and a kiss.  I cannot leave without it.  A few weeks ago I left very, very early in the morning.  The garage door must have woken Grant up because as I pulled away I saw the front door flung open with a half naked four year old, tears streaming down his eyes, running, yelling, "HUG!" He was immediately followed by a half naked 44 year old trying to catch him.

    Grant said to me today, "I'll give you a hug and kiss now.  I'll be in the window, blowing kisses.  Waiting.  (pause for effect) Patiently."

    So.

    Stinkin'.

    Cute.

    Friday, April 17, 2015

    Man Down, Man Down!

    Grant was sent home early from Johnson Pond yesterday because he was throwing up. 

    Grant spit up a lot as a baby.  A LOT.  Poor Lisa would get him in one outfit, sit him up, and then immedaitely have to change it.  Grant would projectile just enough to get it all over him - and sometimes on whoever was holding him.  Usually Lisa who then had to change her outfit too.  Once he hit his toddler years he stopped and then rarely - if ever puked.

    Yesterday might have been the second time in memory that he truly could not keep anything down.  Not rice, not juice, not even water.  Lisa got the call and picked him up while I was at the University of Richmond on an inspection of their ROTC program.  By the time I got home Grant was sprawled out on a blanket, barf bucket next to his head.

    That poor guy was curled up with absolutely zero enegy in the tank.  I lay down with him and we watched WALL-E and he fell asleep.  He kept on sleeping so I replayed half  the movie again. 

    When Grant got up he was thirsty.  Fifteen minutes later water stayed down.  An hour later Pedialyte stayed down.  Some banana stayed down after that.  His energy was at half a tank as he played walkie-talkies with his brother.  Thankfully he hadn't napped through bedtime and he was asleep by 9:00pm.

    At 5:55 he was on.  The mischeivous grin was back.

    That's our boy.

     

    Wednesday, April 15, 2015

    Getting To The Sweet Spot

    Grant Robert is four years old.
    TJ is almost eight.
    Lisa and I are young in mind and spirit and try to keep the body young as well.

    The children are no longer toddlers who require diaper changing, feeding, or constant supervision.  They can dress themselves if we leave their clothes out for them.  They can ride bikes, play video games, and get from our house to Grandma's house all on their own.  They are boys now.  They fight and wrestle and hug and adore each other - all in the same moment.  They still listen (for the most part) to mom and dad and willingly demonstrate their love of us.  Grant still gives hugs and kisses and watches you leave from the window when you leave.  TJ is not opposed to holding dad's hand once in a while - not yet, at least.

    The boys bring with them all of the fun and aggravation that Andy and I must have brought to our parents.  TJ is now allowed to go out on his own - without his little brother - to find his friends in the neighborhood.  It's nice to have him get on his bike and disappear to Austin's, or Owen's, or Nicholas' house.  And not disappear in a bad way - but in a way that allows him some earned freedom without us hovering over him.  It's not "free range" parenting, but it's close.  Soon enough - once the training wheels come off of Grant's bike, the two of them will be off for the afternoon - coming home at dinner time or when the sun comes down. 

    And - oh - how I hope for that for them because it was what I remember from my youth.  The summer days lasted forever and were filled with adventure and missions, scrapes and scratches, sweat and pond water; and all our parents had to do was open the front door, call our names, and we headed home.

    We are entering into that sweet spot where they are self sufficient enough to do somethings on their own but not so self sufficient they don't want us around.  I know those days are on the far horizon.  Those days where we are no longer cool enough to want to be seen with.  Where family vacations involve adolescents who prefer to be independent.

    For now we can go on a bike ride or head to the beach or go hiking.  The opportunities are expanding.

    I am enjoying this part of life.



    Monday, April 06, 2015

    Glad I Don't Use 35mm Film Anymore




    Happy Easter 2015.


    Our day was an easy one with a late start to the day, 9:30am service at crowded Fuquay Varina United Methodist Church, and a lazy sunny Sunday afternoon with family.  We never really picked up on egg hunts or egg coloring - although I have distinct memories of mom and Paas egg coloring kits with the little wire dippers.  The smell of vinegar and the fizzing of the tablets.Oi, what a mess we made back then.





    Betty and Bobby came over for a Honey Baked Ham, potatoes bacon and green beans, rolls and a bottle of wine.  I even made brussel sprouts (with bacon) for the first time ever.  Brussel sprouts were a favorite of mine from when my grandmother, Mimi made them as a kid.  She used to make them in butter topped with bread crumbs.  We made them with bacon because, well, everything tastes better with bacon.  Aside from the oven not working properly for Lisa (it worked fine for me) dinner was great.  I realize we are not a dinner conversation family; at least not now with two boys and Bobby, but it was nice to have loved ones around the table.




    We even heard from Samantha.  I got a text late at night wishing me a happy Easter and saying she missed me.  It is the first time she has reached out to us in over eight months.  There were no mixed messages or reading between the lines in the message, just a straight forward line of text.  It's a start.




    The Easter Bunny left the boys new ties for Sunday service in their baskets.  Not clip-ons either.  I got to have some "dad time" helping the boys tie their ties.  Okay, I did it for them.  It was still fun.




    Of course taking pictures of our two clowns was a different story. As you can see from the series of photos on the right, the phrase, "hold still and smile" does not translate well to young boys. These photos now show up on my phone and I laugh out loud every time I see them.  As funny as TJ is he will always have to play the straight man to Grant's clown. Grant plays to the camera so well and he absolutely knows how to goof off for it.



    Happy Easter, "He is risen."

    Thursday, April 02, 2015

    Saved A Life

    Traffic stopped.

    A truck up the road in a ditch; steam coming from under the hood.

    Farther up the road another vehicle sits sideways.

    Whatever happened I just missed witnessing it because people are only now stepping out their stopped cars.  All of this is oddly familiar and I pull over, turn off the car, take the keys and head to the truck.

    Glass.  Mud.

    The driver's door is jammed against the mud in the ditch and the passenger side door is locked.

    The driver is unresponsive and we can't get in.  Another Samaritan trods through calf deep mud to the driver's side.  The window has been blasted out and there is still power to unlock the other door.  We open the door and then bend it beyond it's hinges to get better access.  She is still unresponsive but breathing.  The way she is slumped in the seat she needs to be moved to her back or she might not have a clear airway.  We work her onto her back and she immediately aspirates to we lay her on her side.

    A woman knows CPR and is in the cab of the truck.  We all decide that we will leave the driver in the cab unless she stops breathing.

    The victim's entire life is strewn about the truck; her shoes, her purse, her phone among the glass and puke and blood.

    End of day traffic is still driving behind us because there are no emergency personnel on the scene.  I go to a mental place I once lived in as a career and give firm but clear directions to others to control traffic from making a bad scene worse.

    The 911 call was made minutes ago and already sirens are in the distance.  It's amazing how helpless you feel waiting for more qualified people to show up.  All we could to for this unconscious woman was keep her airway open and check her pulse.

    The ambulance is on the scene but there still aren't enough emergency personnel for both sites and I am back at the truck helping secure her onto a backboard and right onto a stretcher.  Aside from stabilizing her neck they don't wait too long to head to the hospital.

    I walked back to the car after thanking the woman who checked vitals and the guy who went through the driver side door.

    Why...

    I got out of the car because it is instinctual.  Go to where help is needed and do your best.  Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't.  I've seen people die who I've tried to help while others have survived.  I sleep better at night knowing I tried.

    Maybe the world is only going to be a better place when helping one another becomes more instinctual and we strive to lift one another up in all circumstances - not just life or death.



    Wednesday, April 01, 2015

    Yodeling Squirrels Spring Outing 2015!

    "Little ol' lady who?"

    Last weekend was one of the craziest in a long time.

    It was the Second Year Spring Outing for Y-Guides and the Yodeling Squirrels were headed for Arapahoe, NC for a weekend of activities, games, bonding, and general mayhem.  This year's theme was "Magic".  Y-Guides is a three year long, father/child program built on values, community, service, and building a stronger bond between father and son/daughter.  The Yodeling Squirrels is our tribe name.

    This weekend was also one of the coldest of early spring with an Arctic Blast out of Canada that dropped temperatures into the low 20's over night.  Keep in mind that while were not necessarily "camping", per se, but we were sleeping in unheated cabins with nothing but wood shutters between us and the elements.   The entire trip down to Arapahoe it rained.  Within minutes of getting there, TJ was soaked, cold, and had no way to warm up inside.  Even before we got there the other dads has already planned their early departure from the weekend, plotting where in the Saturday program they could escape.

    Friday night was also the ice cream social - not hot chocolate, clearly no one thought this through - a wild 30 or 40 minutes of 7, 8, and 9 year olds dancing, chasing, yelling, and getting their boys genes out (proper spelling).

    We occupied our cabin and by 12:30am I was being tortured by grown men with deviated septums and sleep apnea issues.  The snoring lasted until 6:30am with no relief.  Thank goodness there was hot coffee at 7:00am as my son and I bundled in fleece and layers and hats to go out into the brisk morning air.  Saturday morning would alternate between clear and cloudy, windy or calm, cold or hints of warmth.

    We had breakfast and hit the challenges; archery, tennis, BB guns, and canoeing right away.  For each activity you earned a punch on your punchcard that looked like the ace of hearts with icons on them.  I hit the archery balloon on my target and TJ hit the shaken can of soda at riflery, sending a stream of fizzy soda arching into the ground!  But, at the canoe lake, TJ saw that the zip line was open.  The zip line is a 40' tall, 500' long trip down a cable on a cable trolley attached to a seat harness into the water.  Water.  At this point you can refer back to paragraph three and re-read the description of the weather.

    The rule was, as long as the air temperature and water temperature equalled over 100* combined then people would be allowed to go down the zip line.  I'm pretty sure the combined temperature was 101*.

    Now, you had to go down the zip line AND go down the blue zoom water slide in order to ALL the icon punched on your card.  Then, and only then, did you earn a special trophy AND a special bear claw for display.  TJ wanted to go down.  I mulled it over.  You only get to do this once.  You only get to be cool for a short period of time.  You only get to impress your son in a big way while they are young.  But holy shit - not one of the dads who were trying it looked at all happy with their decision - kids character be damned.



    Yet, there I was, 40' on top of the tower, already freezing in just shorts next to TJ who showed no hesitation whatsoever.  The water was so cold that it went beyond taking your breath away.  It was like millions of pins and needles all over your body - but oddly it was hot, like a burning sensation. We ran back to the towels and shirts we had and headed over to the zoom, 1, 2, 3, GO - then right to the shower.  Fifteen minutes of trying to bring my core body temperature back to 98.6*.  It didn't work.  I was cold for the rest of day despite layers and layers.

    The rest of the day was used to filled out our card; shark tooth pile, "magic" tricks, and obstacle course.  We even went to the snake show.  I am not fond of snakes at all.  At. All. This gentleman brought a truck full.  TJ was a little tentative but then helped hold a 14', 120lb yellow python that took seven dads to help pull out of it's box.  Guess who helped put it back in.  Yep, this guy.  I faced my fear and held this massive creature like it was a heavy log or a toddler being put to bed.  Then someone handed TJ a 12" long hog nosed snake and his tolerance lasted about 43 seconds...and then he handed it to me.  And so there is video of me holding a small, harmless snake for 21 seconds before finding a willing and competent adult to take it from me.

    We all had dinner but the exodus was on.  Clearly there were less dads and kids than at lunch or breakfast.  I told TJ who was dejected but went along with it.  There was no way I was going to spend another night freezing while listening to grown men snore just feet away from me so we packed up and trekked back to Fuquay-Varina.

    And as crazy as that sounds it wasn't all!  I also had Reserves this weekend and drove to Greensboro on Friday morning, met with my staff, drove to Fuquay to pick up TJ by 2pm and then drove down to camp.  On Sunday morning?  I drove back to Greensboro to finish out the weekend with my Soldiers.

    I hope to leave my sons with good memories of a dad who wasn't afraid to get hypothermia or hold a massive snake - or go on roller coasters or play in the surf.  I want them to know that at the times it would have been easier to say something was too hard, that their dad put them first as often as possible.

    That is the kind of dad I want them to be someday.


    Saturday, March 14, 2015

    Giving You the Bird(s).


    TJ and I decided to set up the camera in places where our birds come to feed.  It was a fun little experiment with the stands and clamps I made last year.  I have not used the GoPro in a while but the mood has suddenly struck me.

    We were able to get up close and personal with the birds who visit our feeders.

    The second part of this video is great because if you look carefully there are birds everywhere - on  the feeders, on the ground, and in the air.

    It's spring in North Carolina and the world is reborn.




    Friday, March 13, 2015

    Family Room Fun!



    The boys are finally big enough to send them upstairs to play without worrying about a toddler barrel rolling down the stairs.  We have this great loft play area that we, the adults, have agreed to give over to the boys and their toys so that the downstairs living room does not look like a Toys-R-Us exploded.



    However...



    Without a doubt the boys are, um - clingy. 



    To mom.
     

    Exclusively.



    Exhaustively.



    I think we have a good family dynamic.  We eat dinner together.  The kids have access to us whenever they need it.  Even when we are on the toilet or getting changed.  They can come up into bed and hang out in the morning.  But we need some space! 



    The loft has big comfy couches, a Xbox, TV, games, and lots of space for their toys.  All of the things to lure them are there - now we need to convince them to go up there and play.  Especially while were are making dinner.  That's our time - Lisa and me - to unwind and enjoy some conversation.  So go upstairs and PLAY!



    One thing we did was to decorate the upstairs in Disney style.  We picked our favorite family photos to turn them into wall art. Then we came across a set of twelve,12"x18" retro Walt Disney World attraction posters that we framed and hung down the hallway.  My favorite is the Monorail.  It is just enough Disney without being pretentious but being interesting at the same time.  Lisa and I have been in the Downtown Disney Art Store plenty of times looking for just the right piece of art to hang upstairs and ended up buying a dozen posters and framing them for a fraction of the price. 

    The more fun we make the loft area for them the more the boys will be willing to play there.  Right?

    Well...this evening Lisa and I watched the UNC vs. UVA ACC Semi-final while the boys played Xbox.   It might be working!



    Tuesday, March 10, 2015

    Missing

    These are the last pictures I have of Samantha. We have not spoken since August 9, 2014 - seven months.

    She said some things that cannot be excused unless she apologizes and her asking for forgiveness is beyond her 17 year old reach.  With her temperament and attitude I don't know when or if she will find those words. 

    It took me forty years to learn how to forgive and ask for forgiveness - and more importantly - forgive myself for my own mistakes.  I manage my expectations for Sam against this knowledge.  It might be a long time before she is ready for that step.

    It has not been easy being without a daughter who already makes herself distant both physically and emotionally.  Missed holidays, missed trips, missed family interaction.  We are a family living a good life but with a piece missing.  All of those events are enhanced by Sam's presence.  In those rare moments that she let's her guard down her sense of humor and astuteness bring out so much more in the moment.
    August 7, 2014

    It's even harder having to hear her life through an ex-wife who only contacts me with the dramatic, intensified, roll-your-eyes-what-happpened-now news with a heavy dose of the sacrifices she has had to make over the last twelve years.

    The boys are not really aware that Sam is gone from the family dynamic. Her room is still there as it was.  Her pictures are still on the walls.  Seven year olds and four year olds live in their own bubbles of friends and fun.  It's hard for them to notice that they don't talk to their sister.  I am blessed that they have each other but sad that she does not have them.

    Sam is a on a journey that might produce some amazing results.  She might live the life less lived.  But there is a lot of failure in a journey like that.  And it's an intense struggle to figure it out at 17.  Heck, most 27, 37, and 47 year olds can't figure it out.  Unfortunately, the trip is a maze right now; filled with dead ends and double backs and she can't see over the wall to know which direction is right.  I can't help her.  She doesn't want it.

    It aches to sit on the sideline knowing that my involvement will only make things worse.

    I miss her every day.


    Thursday, March 05, 2015

    Pool Time

    A little video from last year's vacation to Walt Disney World with the boys and their cousins.

    We stayed at our "back up" resort, Saratoga Springs, and went to our favorite pool - The Paddock. Although a little on the chilly side, the water was warm enough to get in and stay in and the setting sun created Lisa's favorite light.  

    Unfortunately, the boys wanted me out of the water on the water slide.

    And this is Grant's FIRST time on a water slide, watch as concern is replaced by fear and is quickly replaced by thrill, only to be replaced disappointment that his face got wet.  TJ, on the other hand, is a ham.



    CLICK THE PICTURE!



    Saturday, February 28, 2015

    2014 Holidays Pop Quiz

    Okay readers, put your books away and take out a No. 2 pencil.  It's quiz time.  Hopefully you were paying attention the last four months and took good notes.  This is an open book quiz.  Feel free to use the pictures for clues.


    1.  For Halloween, TJ and Grant dressed up as?

         a.  Phineas and Ferb
         b.  Elvis and Frank Sinatra
         c.  Wolfman and Captain American
         d.  Static Cling and a Sock

    2.  Where was the Halloween party?

         a.  The Brown's House
         b.  The Haran's House
         c.  The Cul de Sac
         d.  What party?

    3.  What was the first ride the Brown, Kirk, and Blockus clans rode on our trip to Disney World?

         a.  Seven Dwarves Mine Train Ride
         b.  Toy Story Mania
         c.  Star Tours
         d.  Space Mountain

    4.  On Wednesday night who returned to Hollywood Studios to see the Christmas lights?

         a.  TJ, Rich, and Grace
         b.  Mark, Rich, and TJ
         c.  Kira, Grace, and Grant
         d.  Betty, Lisa, and TJ

    5.  What Disney character did Grant not get his picture taken with?

         a.  Buzz Lightyear
         b.  Donald Duck
         c.  Chip n' Dale
         d.  Pluto

    6.  Who went to Epcot Saturday morning?

         a.  Betty, Grace, Linda, and TJ
         b.  Mark, Rich, Lisa, and Grant
         c.  Betty, Linda, and Lisa
         d.  Lisa, Rich, TJ, and Grant

    Bonus:  Who joined them for lunch?

         a.  Lisa, Rich, and Grant
         b.  Kira, Mark, and Rich
         c.  Grace, Linda, and Betty
         d.  Rich, TJ, and Grant

    7.  What ride did Grant go on that TJ has never been on?

         a.  it's a small world
         b.  Goofy's Barnstormer
         c.  The Haunted Mansion
         d.  Hollywood Tower of Terror


    8.  What seat did TJ sit in on Space Mountain?

         a.  Front
         b.  Middle
         c.  Back
         d.  TJ did not ride Space Mountain

    9.  What did Grant and Rich do that no one else in the group did?

         a.  Rode the Seven Dwarves Mine Train Ride
         b.  Met Gaston
         c.  Rode the horse drawn trolley
         d.  Met WALL-E

    10.  Which was NOT a pairing on Tomorrowland Speedway?

         a.  Grace and Linda
         b.  Mark and Kira
         c.  Rich and TJ
         d.  Lisa and Linda

    11.  Who cooked the Thanksgiving turkey?

         a.  Linda
         b.  Lisa
         c.  Kira
         d.  Publix


    12.  Who got which character hats?

         a.  TJ got Donald Duck and Lisa got Goofy
         b.  Rich got Goofy and TJ got Donald Duck
         c.  TJ got Donald Duck and Grant got Pluto
         d.  Grant got Pluto and Rich got Goofy

    13.  Who did not go to Animal Kingdom on Friday?

         a.  Betty
         b.  Linda
         c.  Lisa
         d.  Grace

    14.  What was Grant's favorite present for his 4th birthday?

         a.  Cement Mixer
         b.  Underwear
         c.  Stitch pillow
         d.  iTunes Gift Card

    15.  What was the name of the guest who joined us for Christmas dinner?

         a.  Martin
         b.  Mervin
         c.  Merlin
         d.  Marvin



    16.  What cool present did Rich get for Christmas?

         a.  Xbox One
         b.  GoPro Camera
         c.  Lego Star Wars AT-AT
         d.  iTunes Gift Card


    17.  Who cooked the Christmas day turkey?

         a.  Linda
         b.  Lisa
         c.  Kira
         d.  Publix

    18.  Where was New Year's Eve held?

         a.  The Aviator
         b.  The Draftline
         c.  The Haran's house
         d.  The Brown's house


    19.  Who bailed out on baby sitting within 15 minutes of getting to the party?

         a.  Grace
         b.  India
         c.  Kira
         d.  Betty

    20.  Who almost got arrested by the police for shooting fireworks?

         a.  Rich
         b.  Lisa
         c.  Mark
         d.  TJ











    Answers in the next Journal entry!