Where Does the Time Go?

How can it be four years? How could such a simple operation end so horribly, horribly wrong? How can there be two grandsons who will never know a Christmas with you? You have no idea how much you are missed...

There is a whole new chapter in my life that you'd be so proud of. The boys are wonderful, they would be a source of endless joy for you, and I'm sure there would be the inevitable comparisons between them and Andy and I. Samantha is a young woman now - no, you wouldn't recognize her. She is amazing and is going on to do great things. Life is good, despite your absence four years on.

There is a book in the house, The Cat in the Hat, that we read to TJ. On the inside cover is your hand writing "dedicating" the book to Alyssa, Samantha, and Luc. Someday I'll explain to the boys why you didn't get to include their names and live this day over once again.