Monday, January 25, 2021

Out of the Closet (My Wife Just Needs to Accept What I Am)

About fifteen years ago I received an unusual Christmas gift from my sister-in-law, Linda, a LEGO model of a B-Wing Fighter from the Star Wars movies. It was unusual because I had never considered building a LEGO model until that moment. Ever. It turns out, however, I enjoy the meticulousness of fitting the parts together and not really knowing how it all comes together until about midway through the build. Truth be told, I even played with the B-Wing for a while...and then I put the whole thing away in the closet.

Over the years I collected even more sets; the AT-AT Walker and Snow Speeder, Anakin's Fighter, a Y-Wing Fighter and others. All built once and put away. I put them away because I have children. Specifically, two boys, who if they had their way, would take the model apart and mix and or loose pieces forever.  By the way, Sam was never interested in LEGOs, so I was never worried about her.  When the boys were old enough we bought them their own sets but they still gravitated to my Star Wars sets accumulating in the closet. One thing I am obsessive about is keeping pieces and parts of games and toys together because once a key piece is missing then the whole toy is useless. 

For context, it also needs to stated that I am a huge Star Wars fan. I was ten years old in 1977, the year Star Wars came out. I owned a lot of the Kenner toys - and even have a few secreted away. I know all of the characters and have seen all the movies. I've read novels and comic books about that galaxy a long time ago, far, far away.  When I deployed in 2008 I took Star Wars sheets for my bed. I ran the Star Wars Dark Side Half Marathon.  Last summer I went to Disney's Galaxy's Edge and geeked out as much as the kids did upon seeing the Millennium Falcon.  You get the picture.  So while regular  LEGO models are okay fun, Star Wars LEGO models are a lot of fun.

This past Christmas we got a little crazy with LEGOs and Star Wars. We bought the kids a set and they bought me Slave I, Boba Fetts ship. By the way, they bought it the week before Boba Fett (and his ship) appeared in the Mandalorian.  The model was about 740+ pieces and took the better part of a day to build.  These models, especially the bigger ones, become scarce in stores. Most people balk at a $150 to $250 model.  

During the holiday season I came across a big LEGO set; the Tantive IV. The Tantive IV is the very first ship seen in the opening scene to the first Star Wars movie, A New Hope.  In that first five minutes we see Princess Leia, R2D2 and C-3PO, and Darth Vader. For a ten year old kid, this was life changing.  So to see the ship on the shelf I knew I wanted it.  The next day when I went back, just like that, it was gone.  The harder I searched for it the more frustrated I got. The LEGO website it was sold out. The LEGO store said it was discontinued...

...and then I found it on Walmart's website.  It wasn't cheap but then I am not known for treating myself to things very often; click here to complete your purchase <click>.

As I as building the set I realized it is time to pull all of the models out of the closet and put them on display. The kids know better then to go playing with them and bust them into pieces.  It was time to embrace the person I am. Down came the school pictures and wedding photo and up went, well, toys.  

Proof, that my wife married a big kid. 

Not just a big kid, a big nerdy kid.  

With Star Wars toys.






 

 


Wednesday, January 20, 2021

Two Weeks Later

Today marked two weeks since insurrectionists and seditionists stormed the Nation's Capitol in an attempt to overthrow democracy and install their hero as a despot, or dictator, but certainly not the president. Not of the United States of America.  Had they succeeded then the concept of the United States would have ended.

For them, January 6, was their "high water mark," the farthest they would ever get to achieving their goals. Like the Confederacy after Gettysburg, they will have to slink away in a conflict of attrition, never fully defeated but subdued into the corners and fringes of America. 

Today marked the very best of American democracy; the peaceful transition of power from one leader to another. Despite the low point just weeks ago - and on the very steps where they stormed the Capitol - a new president took the oath of office under a bright blue sky.  You don't have to like him. you only need to appreciate that the concept of the United States of America continues in his ascendancy. 

The very best of America showed itself in the words of a 22 year old African American woman, who's eloquence and poise reaffirmed my hope in our future. Amanda Gorman, a young poet laureate spoke, in part: 

 

 

We’ve seen a force that would shatter our nation rather than share it,

Would destroy our country if it meant delaying democracy.

And this effort very nearly succeeded.

But while democracy can be periodically delayed,

It can never be permanently defeated.

In this truth, in this faith, we trust.

For while we have our eyes on the future,

history has its eyes on us.

 This is the era of just redemption

We feared at its inception

We did not feel prepared to be the heirs

of such a terrifying hour

but within it we found the power

to author a new chapter

To offer hope and laughter to ourselves

So while we once we asked,

how could we possibly prevail over catastrophe?

Now we assert

How could catastrophe possibly prevail over us?

We will not march back to what was

but move to what shall be

A country that is bruised but whole,

benevolent but bold,

fierce and free.

 

This is the America we need to be. This is the America we need to strive to be and rise to be.

 

Friday, January 08, 2021

Forty-eight Hours Later

This post needs to serve a record for my children who witnessed it without fully understanding what they were seeing.

 

It has been 48 hours since the darkest day in American history since 1861.

Not even "a day that will live in infamy" or a clear blue sky day in September can compare. On December 7, 1941, and September 11, 2001we were attacked from enemies outside the country. In those attacks the Japanese sought to sideline us from the war to come and al Qaeda sought to humiliate the "Great Satan". Neither of those enemies had aspiration to overthrow the government of the United States of America. Not even the Confederacy, who broke the union of states, tried to overturn it; instead they tried to leave it. On January 6, 2021, we were attacked from within.

On January 6, 2021, a group of people, refusing to accept the rule of law in a lawful election, and at the urging of the President of the United States, marched to the Capitol and then decided to take matters into their own hands. They stormed the barricades and entered the US Capitol, the "people's house."  In the last 48 hours almost every single news outlet has referred to these people as rioters, a mob, insurgents, terrorists, insurrectionists, or seditionists. Only the children of the President referred to them as "patriots." Let that sink in. 

In a nation built on the rule of law you must being willing to accept that law, even when you disagree with the outcome. In this case, the results of the 2020 election were contested, rightly or wrongly, by the President and his team. Following the law they took their case to the courts, including the conservative U.S. Supreme Court, and had their case refused and/or dismissed 63 out of 64 times for lack of evidence. The rule of law, like it or not, was upheld.  However, that did not stop the President from disaffecting millions of people with a drumbeat of lies that the election was stolen from him even though the facts didn't bear that and the evidence was never produced.  

In the weeks leading up to the certification of the Electoral College results, people were encouraged to come to Washington, D.C. to have their voice heard.  However, some herd a different message. The Radical Right heard the invite and they knew what was a stake for their agenda.  They knew, at no other time in history would they ever be this close to overthrowing the existing government in order to remake it into their own image. January 6 was an all of nothing gamble, because if the President came through for them then he would declare Martial Law and suspend certain rights, and certainly overturn the results of the election.  The Radial Right gambled and lost.  

While they broke into the Senate and House Floors of the congress, the President hid in the White House. While they roamed the halls looking for Senators and Congressmen to hold them accountable, those elected officials, who not just 20 minutes prior had also been trying to undo the election result themselves, ran. They hid. They hid in fear and from the ugly truth that maybe, just maybe, their actions may also make them complicit in the actions of the mob. To date, not a single member or Congress is on record as to having left their safe and secure location to have joined the insurgents. When there is personal risk at stake they opted out.

Almost hysterically, once the terrorists got inside and couldn't find anyone (perhaps to hold hostage or worse), they had no clue what to do.  The President bailed on them, the Republicans who supported objecting to the Electoral College count ran and hid, and no cavalry was coming to the rescue for the revolution.  Not being able to overthrow the government they did the next best thing, they ransacked offices, defaced some statues, took selfies and helped get five people killed. In the end, the revolution wasn't that funny.

What we witnessed on Wednesday, was nothing less than sedition. As a result, politicians, doing what they do best are trying to either backtrack or extricate themselves from the events; all culpability going somewhere else. Other politicians, smelling the blood in the water, are seeking to eviscerate their opponents and certainly lay the blame on the President.  Pundits are trying to lay blame on "other actors" and even empathetically understanding the mobs frustration without connecting it to the lies they were told. I imagine in the days ahead there will be more of the same; rhetoric, spin, damage control, and other efforts to keep the people cloistered in their collective algorithms.  Perhaps we are not out of this nose dive yet.

Our family watched. My children took a real interest in what was happening and it made me proud knowing that they cared and they knew it was wrong. Just over a year and half ago we were guests of our Congressman and we toured the very places that were defiled the other day. I hope that in the years to come, whenever they read this, that history repudiates the acts of treason we witnessed with justice for all the actors. I hope that in the years to come my kids understand that when I took my oath "against all enemies, foreign and domestic" that what I saw on Wednesday were enemies, not Americans.

Not since 1814 has an enemy entered the U.S. Capitol. What I witnessed on Wednesday sickened me to my core. We looked like no less than a Third World Country in need of rescuing from a First World Power who upheld democratic values. There is no irony lost here.